After dealing with my own shit. I've realized: I needed to slow down:

I've had "50 cent's toxic family" around me out of inertia, familiarity and fear of being alone.

These human beings are uncapable, unable and unwilling to learn

how to express their emotions.


They've developed manipulation tactics for emotional survival

growing up, being emotionally oppressed

by toxic ideologies 

which created inherited

emotionally damaged

crabs in a bucket. 

These humans stifle my growth.

And assisted in sabotaging me away from my life's purpose.

They collectively took my unconditional love for granted.

On the day, that I vowed to always protect


I confined myself to a mental imprisonment. With my ego as the guard.

unconsciously betrayed my inner self,

Therefore: I've suffered 20 years of my own negative karma!