#SPEAKUP end #SILENTABUSE
Curtis 50 Cent J. Jackson III
Will Not Take Fucking Responsibility!
I am one woman who don't give a fuck. Right from wrong is taught to toddlers. My voice WAS small.
Curtis 50 Cent J Jackson III at one point I had respect for you.
You're a weak and an enabler.
You engaged in phone calls with Geraldine and Michael.
About Michael Sr's (her husband and his father)
sexual abuse to my daughter when she was 5.
If my statements were not 100% TRUE.
YOU WOULD HAVE PUBLICALLY SHAMED ME ALREADY.
Like you bully everyone else.
If you do come for me negatively at this point
you will only look foolish. And publicly.
Hence prove the wisdom in my book = A boy acting in his uncontrolled emotions.
I'm a person who admits to her shit. At one point the thought of being sued for slander by you passed my mind. Then I quickly responded to myself:
What would I say?
Hum, maybe your honor:
What else do you call a person who protects a child molesting abuser?
EVERYONE KISSES YOUR ASS BUT NOT ME
YOUR ACTIONS HURT REAL INNOCENT PEOPLE.
#SPEAKUP and end #SILENTABUSE
This is what #silentabuse looks like!
FAMILY ENCOURAGED ME TO STAY WITH THIS. SO, I DID
THEY SAID I WAS GOOD FOR HIM. I WAS
THEY SAID I HELPED HIM GROW. I DID
I WAS SO GOOD FOR HIM. I BETRAYED HER
I HELPED HIM GROW AND ALLOWED HER HEART TO BE BROKEN
FUCKING SHAME! SHES SUCH A BAD BITCH!!
THE PURGE: CRYING IS OK, IT'S A CLEANSE 11/10/2022 2:27 pm:
After posting my TicTok (top of the screen) I have remained in isolation. Outside of my mother and the children that live with me. I have not spoken to anyone. Nor has Curtis cowardly ass reached out to me. The entire Jackson & Francis families are afraid of my truth which is to be expected. No one has inquired about my son's first day of Pre-K which was yesterday. Which was amazing! As their feelings have been hurt by MY truth. And their afraid to face me. Therefore: my children are causalities of war. My gift is the ability to see the good in everyone with a matter of fact-ness that they cannot comprehend nor have never experienced. Therefore, I scare them.
I see unacknowledged beauty in broken-ness.
For me these actions are to be expected. I accept and love them. As now I know them for who they truly are, instead of what I wanted them to be through my rose-colored glasses. For that I already forgave them. I'm just wondering how long it's going to take them to forgive themselves. My passion to move forward is misinterpreted for anger. Which is frustrating. I am passionate about creating an unbreakable foundation of trust. Because I GIVE A DAMN. They live in mind. Therefore, I anticipate myself and children will remaining invisible to them.
Currently their drifting through the fog with spontaneous emotional turbulence, tightly gripping the landing gear for dear life wishing for visibility to land for a safe landing.
When you should stop take a breath. Loosen the fucking death grip on the landing gear. Then put that bitch in autopilot. Because you trust your instruments to do what they were created to do: LAND YOUR ASS SAFELY ON THE GROUND.
To explain: You have to stop. Remove the distractions (self-reflect) accept that you did fucked up shit. Because _______ what ever the explanation is. Then you acknowledge the person. Now trusting your intuition and MOVE THE FUCK FORWARD.
I stayed in that abusive relationship with Michael and his family because like I mentioned in my memoir, he was familiar to me. Through my healing I finally traced the familiarity back:
The verbal abuse and spankings I received from my dad.
My mother NEVER hit me. My mother always talked with me and explained things to me. There was one time when she pretended to beat me by hitting the bunkbed and telling me to yell, just to satisfy his families learned #silentabuse tactics.
As a little girl: I learned my expectations from a man (my dad)
was for them to mistreat me.
And to allow myself to be violated by them.
That’s what dads that grow up in dysfunctional families unknowingly teach their daughters.
By their daughter's observation of their interaction with their father or what society teaches you when you lack a father. Never with clear communication.
For me now: I know my daddy saw me as his little girl. As although he did not have the words. He always had the actions. Wither it's going to the store in the middle of the night just to find me an apple. Or ensuring we had family vacations. That were fun as fuck! That's a non-verbal action of a man who loves his daughter.
In truth I have spanked and hurt the feelings of all of my kids as I’ve been under complete stress, overwhelmed and unable to identify why I was angry. BECAUSE I was unknowingly repeating a cycle, I was familiar with. But HATED. #silentabuse.
Acting on my emotions.
I ALWAYS take responsibility and apologize to my kids. Because, after I give myself a moment. To think about what the fuck is really bothering me. It has nothing to do with them. I apologize quickly because I know what it feels like to have your feelings hurt by others that are supposed to love and support you. I built a foundation of trust: I can always believe my kids. Which is NOT common practice in black households.
I then make up for it by actively engaging with my kids! With things they love to do. It soothes the yearn of my inner kid that never had the experience of a cohesive family. As I’ve always had to be responsible to manage the emotions of adults as a child. Who could not properly express themselves. To then as an adult manage the emotions of other adults who have also experienced repeated #silentabuse.
My mother broke our families generational curse by always talking with me, explaining and guiding me. She allowed me to experience things I now know others haven't. A mom who talked with me instead of AT ME.
Now I’m teaching my kids my lessons and allow them a space for their emotions.
Because it's the CHILDREN in this type of family dynamic who experience the true trauma of #silentabuse. As it’s the children who have been violated when they are taught:
Holding back emotions is a sign of maturity.
Children are to be seen and not heard. Silenced.
Receiving a spanking or an ass whooping, followed up with smiles, gifts or being nice to me. Instead of an apology.
When family members use sarcasm at a child. It causes confusion to the mind, as sarcasm has not been explained to them.
Instead, the family collectively uses it as a weapon against the children. And then laugh
To understand why Dysfunctional Narcissistic Family Dynamic matters to me so much. You would have to be a party on my numerous land lengthy IEP zoom meetings. I have been in for the last 2 years. I choose my specific county because: their special education program has a superior social emotional evaluation process to identify my kids TRUE struggles so that WE as a collective make accommodation to support them both in school and at home with the trauma they've experienced.
This dynamic creates: Avoidant Personality Disorder: My son Amari 11:
Which are chronic feelings of inadequacy. These individuals are highly sensitive of being negatively judged by others. Though they would like to interact with others, they tend to avoid social interaction due to the intense fear of being rejected by others. So, they avoid situations that they fear and believe they will not be successful with the outcome (friends, someone liking you, passing a test, getting the winning shot) = The Wining at all cost trait.
Being highly sensitive of being negatively judged by others creates EBD: Emotional Behavioral Disorder and is characterized by excesses, deficits or disturbances of behavior. The child's difficulty is now emotionally based and cannot be adequately explained by intellectual, sensory, general health factors.
And mimic Anti-Social Anxiety Disorder: My son Anthony 8:
Characterized by impulsive, irresponsible and often criminal behavior. Someone with antisocial personality disorder will typically be manipulative, deceitful and reckless, and will not care for other people's feelings.
For me: This family dynamic creates children who are unable to maintain healthy relationships because there is so much internal fear of them being criticized by others: When in fact most of the time people don't give a damn about your flaws if you're an amazing person with a great giving spirit. When you fuck up take ownership and be honest.
In this family dynamic children are not allowed.
and therefore, struggle to feel comfortable when in the Prescence of others,
who can do things that they believe they cannot.
They fear their mask will fall and they will be seen:
As an ability to be perfect.
So, they need to fit in with the crowd.
This family dynamic teaches the children their unworthy of being accepted by others
because if they show their true self. They will be abandoned #Silenced
Basic human being needs is Love & community Support.
Although I have been abandoned
I teach my kids their worthy of accepted within their own family
My kids become overly critical of their own self in an attempt to fit in.
As they grow into ego centered adults, they will also wear masks to fit in
SO, I REFUSE TO BE. #Silenced.
we have to #speakup on the #silentabuse that happens within black families almost everywhere.
Which is influenced by their outdated family culture.
As a child, I learned how to be quiet. Then I became the silent observing adult. At the time of typing this. I finally realize what I've always really wanted was:
My Dad Wayne Moore to see. And hear me.
Now, I see myself and therefore truly see how much he cares, loves and is proud of all the things he sees me do. Even if he doesn't know how to say it properly. He at least tries! No longer am I waiting for SOMEONE or SOMETHING outside of myself to #speakup.
Two years ago, I had my own mental break down from the constant #silentabuse and family betrayal. Hard scrambled with my already twice concussed head. The need to be free sent me on an emotional journey for spiritual healing for something that I’ve always wanted as a child:
To have a complete family foundation, that was built on unconditional love. One that engaged with each other. We would hang out. Laugh to tears together, build each other up, learn from each other. Prank each other, supported each other. And our kids knew each other just as much. My mother kept her kids separate because of her #silentabuse.
I’VE FULLY GIVEN MYSELF PERSMISSION TO SPEAK THE FUCK UP. SO SHOULD YOU.
My purpose is to blow the whistle on this toxic family dynamic and show you:
BROKEN FAMILIES CAN BE FIXED.
WITH A PURGE OF #SPEAKUP
ON YOUR #SILENTABUSE.
I believe it's everyone's life purpose to break their families' generational curses. When you #speakup about #silentabuse. Then you’ve freed your family from the generational demons Everyone moving forward is free to be a creative, innovative and a balanced unconditional loving human being without fear and anxiety. Which leads to stress, and then a heart attack which is the true #1silentkiller.
Michael, The Jackson's & The Francis's are all bonded together by their deep dark traumas. Our future does not include them.
But I beleive human beings are all resilient. When you stop. Listen. Acknowledgement. Then fill them up with purposeful love.
MY FUTURE IS BRIGHT
My memoir & life lessons will be available on
Amazon Friday 11/11/22 and selling for $111 as I was guided to by my intuition and amazing spirit team. As I am completing my life’s purpose of changing the world with my inspirational wisdom.
FYI: Angel number 1111 means that I am in alignment with my authentic self.
And although my mind and spirit are healed and on fire: This human vessel is extremely weak from taking on too much of everyone else's emotions so I’m going to need fucking recovery. I could beg for charity. Or go find a program. But why? I feel that's for those who can't come up with a plan. I on the other hand am a very intelligent and a strong believer in my own abilities. So, here's how I'm going to use my book sales:
THIS IS AN UNHEALTHY ENVIORNMENT FOR MY KIDS AND I'M READY TO LEAVE.
Scoliosis Reduction Center $25k 10-day intensive treatment, with custom neck and back brace that I will wear on and off for a year includes travel and stay with the hope of significantly reducing my curve which will stop my degeneration and get me the fuck out of pain.
Full set of basic implant dentures. $25K
IV Hydration Treatment cost me $260 a session with tip. I go 1-2 x per week
Stretch Zone Therapeutic stretch with tip
medical massage $300 per session with tip
Medical coordinator. I have over 10 different doctors and therapies that need to be updated on my constantly changing health.
Good health coverage, mine does not cover simple birth control.
For my kids
The best legal team for my daughter's sexual abuse case
An attorney who is happy to sue Curtis "50 Cent" J. Jackson III, Geraldine K Francis & Michael T. Francis. For slander, defamation & blackballing. They have collectively failed to respond to my cease and deist warning letter. I am now ready to proceed to collect my monetary damages. AND ILLEGALLY FILING A CPS CASE AGAINST ME.
Pay off her car
Pay off her tuition
Set her up in her own condo or co-op.
Dental extraction $2800 with pediatric sedation
Take my kids on a trip to Lego World
Independent school: My kids don’t fit in a box. Like myself.
Send my son the NASA space program
Assist my other son with launching his first Roblox game
A complete ancestorial discovery
(2) 2023 Tesla Model X’s (1) White / Red interior, (1) Red/White Interior
A trust fund designated for each child in this ENTIRE "family" to use for their own creative innovative ideas ONLY because they have all been a victim of the #silentabuse.
An olive branch to start again to the 19 individuals I exiled myself from, that have either supported or offered me room to grow. This time building a solid truthful unconditional loving family foundation. As we all deserve the gift of a fresh start.
Michael T Francis &
Curtis 50 Cent Jackson.
Our business is personal you will have to
speak to me face to face if we are to ever proceed.
Followed by an authentic apology for acting in your emotions.
And hurting mine and my kids' feelings!
As for The Molester: enjoy your freedom for now as your ass won't have it for long. Child Molesting + Prison + Karma is a bad combination!
My kids need a space to rebuild without toxicity. If I do, engage it will be at a distance & after I recover and execute my next passionate birth to the world which was interrupted and halted when who I will call Cowardly Curtis blackballed me with Judge Lin Hidalgo.
To 100% own the abandoned Astrodome Houston, TX.
To then Technology the fuck out of it.
So that it can be the first home team of
N.A.L National Airsoft League
Which is the first black women owned sports league.
I am taking the hobby of airsoft and transforming it into a competitive sport with spectators and our culture. Think of me like WWE but for airsoft. I will introduce new creative and fucking fun jobs for people like never before! I have met so many people along my journey that are amazing souls BUT can’t see how to make money. But can make a damn good airsoft player, engineer, videographer or a damn Humvee Driver! At this point I will fund this project myself. As unlike others: Have always done this shit by my fucking self!
*Footnote: Several human beings have attempted to steal this idea from me.
However, you will not succeed. Because it's ment for me. Not you.
I created the executable plan while you all had daggers in my back!
So, GET THE FUCK OFF MY LIFE'S PATH with love!
If you don't resonate with this, I suggest you stay in silence and meditate.
And then try again. Before you repeat the lesson in life with that selfish ass ego of yours!